This process is ever going and growing

Some six hundred odd days ago I wrote a little reflection about listening to myself. I didn’t realize it at the time that I might be feeling that I hadn’t progress nearly two years later on my journey. Well, I do feel that way often. I WAS actually a little depressed when I read the opening lines of the second paragraph old article: “For some time now I’ve wanted to find myself a mentor. Someone who would see my strengths and guide me to put them to better use, as well as, see my weaknesses and guide me to overcome them. I have been listening to anyone who offered advice, not always realizing the advice wasn’t really meant for me or my needs.”  Then I read the rest of the article and reread it all again and it hit me like a ton of bricks!

I have learned how to listen to others better. Or, should I say I realize when not to listen? In my new workplace, everyone has opinions and advice to spread around. Sometimes it is welcome advice, sometimes it just leaves no impact other than a feeling of awareness. Awareness that I don’t feel any way about the opinion or advice given. It is just stored away with no emotional tags and I move on. Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t happening with everyone, but even Mom & Dad don’t have the same impact on my self-awareness or self-knowledge, or self-esteem… It’s a remarkably light feeling this awareness I have and I’m loving it! I’m feeling grateful about it too.

The gratitude comes with the bonus of seeing that most people offer advice out of the kindness of their hearts and that the advice is usually more for themselves than applicable to me. However, the feeling of good energy and kindness are what feeds the gratitude.

Wait a second, am I rambling like I do in my morning pages? I think so. Time to move on and give my eyes a rest. from the computer screen for a little. Maybe I’ll paint some furniture or just get ready for breakfast with my awesome family. Wishing you all a great day!