“Overthinking killed my happiness. Insecurities killed my self-esteem. Lies killed my trust.” By unknown
Each one of these statements can be taken by themselves: Anytime I overthink action I find myself looking for excuses to procrastinate. It’s become a wonderfully self-defeating habit that always delivers exactly what I want… to feel worthless. Conversely, every time I just do something, it gets done. Sometimes I feel n nothing from this accomplishment, sometimes I feel good. Seldom do I feel shitty, unless I allow myself to think every part of the action to bits and tear it down. Something in my past started me on this self-destruction and built a comfort zone of insecurities. Something in me likes this more than success. I look for my insecurities to get that familiar discomfort of low self-esteem.
Anytime I procrastinate, I find myself in an inner dialogue that rationalizes poor choices. Judgement aside, these are lies. For example, I can just watch TV while eating lunch, then I will feel ready to start work. Bulls***!!! To top this off, I feel regret after doing this stupidity, this escape from success. This morning as I was about to go for a walk, I heard my inner voices debating my own procrastination weaknesses and that I can’t be trusted to watch even a second of TV. True or not, I now see why I have always been so eager to get started on work right away, before I could let the inner voices pull me away from it.
So, just doing it gets it done = accomplishment. I can choose to be happy about accomplishment.
So, taking action happens when I am indifferent to the feelings of the outcome = self-esteem. I can choose to feel good about getting a result.
So, taking action immediately leaves me no room to tell myself anything and whatever the outcome of my action, it is a fact that I took it = truth. I can choose to see all results as launching boards for learning and growth.
