“maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything… maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place…” From amazingmemovement.com
I don’t know about you, but this really made me feel good! Just the idea that inside, I am already what I’m meant to be and all my work is peeling away the stuff that isn’t me. It goes right in step with the messages of the last few weeks. The un-cluttering of ones life. The dis-anchoring from stuff. The letting go and letting be. The more I clear away, the easier it is to see.
Maybe all this work to move forward isn’t about adding on better habits, behaviours, thoughts, practices, etc… It’s about releasing the past and just being me.
For most of my life, I’ve felt a great drive and anxiety about getting things done. In my head, completion is equal to getting stuff off my list and releasing it from my mind. I’ve been fighting some inner voice about the meaning of this; trying to change the meaning to what other people think as more positive. Changing it to accomplishment, instead of release. Perhaps for me, release is accomplishment. Getting it off my todo list allows me to move forward. It occurs to me that I’ve seldom reflected on what has been learned from the things I get done. I just let them be and feel happy they are done. Then I happily move forward onto the next thing. Perhaps I’ve been seeing this all wrong; maybe the core of me is about always exploring and learning. No wonder I hear my inner voice so often saying “Time to move on…”