Yesterday, I mentioned that I originally intended to input my self-portrait as only one of the crowd. I wanted to be the small face in the back, right of the composition… the spectator behind the crowd, looking at whatever they were looking at. Hmmm… I wonder if this means I have a secret desire to be a follower. I can accept that to a certain extent. My inner voice is offering an alternative view: I am grateful to follow in the footsteps of greatness and that I still have my place in that crowd. YUP, I LIKE THAT BETTER!
Here’s the thing, once I started adding the pink for the faces, I started seeing my smirk appear in all the faces. Maybe they are all me. This will possibly sound arrogant, but maybe I see myself in all the great artists that inspire me. Maybe I’m also following my own artistic voices. that I now can see that my earlier work was just as valuable as my newer work, only different. It all lead to my current abilities and practice. I am in all that I’ve done before and that will continue as I grow forward. Part of this relates to the struggle of overpainting old canvases that I initially had to convince myself I no longer liked in order to sacrifice them to new creativity. Looking at this another way, these older works were steps in my progress and serve as a creative base for my practice. I’m loving to overpaint old canvases, heavy with texture and stories of their own. All that under-texture adds life to my newer compositions! It gives me courage to let go and trust my instincts!
Stay tuned for more on this painting and the others that are already forming in my mind…
Materials: Acrylic on reclaimed (overpainted) canvas
Dimensions: 30” (76.2cm) x 30” (76.2cm)