Day 1 – January 12th, 2017
The question of what I really want has been troubling me for the last several months and every time I start to consider it, I get anxious. It’s no wonder I don’t want to spend time thinking about it. This past week it finally dawned on me that I haven’t been thinking about what I want, rather I have been thinking about what I don’t want. Well, I don’t like what I don’t want… thus the anxiety. I also realized that this habit has been in place in my mind for more years than I can remember, probably since childhood. Well, instead of letting myself be branded as insane, by Einsteins definition, I have chosen to change this habit. That is always the first step, make the decision to act!
About a month ago, while reading an article, the author suggested a way to break habits and begin counting ones accomplishments, instead of failures. More importantly, to establish new habits. Habits that move one forward. The article suggested taking small tasks and doing them consistently for 30 days, starting with stuff you normally do, but allow yourself to sometimes skip. I had a big list of those, but it has taken me a few weeks to really see them in a priority perspective. You’ll see how some have been prioritized below. My intention was to build to ever greater challenges, and I promised myself I would not think of how much I had to do all at once, nor pile on too many things every day, until I felt I could do them. I surprised myself (see *).
About the same time, I was getting ready to start a 30 day challenge to detox and healthier eating. And I was trying desperately to figure out a way to either get one of my projects completed or cut my losses and move onto more on. Well, for me that was the three things I needed to make a decision. You see, I always felt that if I hear something three times, I need to act upon it. So, I started some 30 day challenges! Some alone, some with my wife.
- Meditation of Positivity – Guided self-hypnosis on youtube – started on December 19th, 2016
- Healthier Eating – Arbonne’s 30 Day detox Challenge – started January 4th, 2017
- Painting Daily – 1 abstract exploration each day – started on January 3rd, 2017
- Ted on the Tread – watching 45 minutes of ted’s Surprise me while running every morning – started on January 9th, 2017
- Nightly readings – minimum one hour every evening, then sharing with each other – started January 9th, 2017
- 250 words a day towards What I Want – focused writing daily with a minimum of 250 words about what I want in life – started January 12th, 2016
You can tell from this first entry that it is already beyond the minimum 250 words, and that is ok. My goal is to change my patterns and mindset to focusing only on what I want, be it that moment, that day, or some time in the near future. These will be posted on my The New Renaissance Mind blog, as soon as it is up.
There are a few 30 day challenges I haven’t yet set a start date on, and this is because I see them as bigger and I must commit to each new challenge until the 30 days is complete.
For example, 30 days to publishing my magazine. I am still working on a novel approach that will either be my final attempt at success with this project or be a sign I focus my energies elsewhere. I did what I wanted today. I committed to a course of action, towards the goal of thinking positively, thinking about what I do want, and I am excited to see where it takes me!