What I learned in class today... I have my own process! In my last drawing class, we were tasked with first collecting discarded cardboard boxes that seemed to have faces in them. The project was meant to demonstrate how, we as artists and humans, tend to have the habit of anthropomorphizing all that we see. … Continue reading I’m Only Spontaneous When I Have Time To Think About It First
Reiterating my fears in my own voice is a habit of comfort. I tell them to myself to avoid giving effort to any challenge. These are my excuses and protections against failure. If I don’t try, I can’t fail. This feels like an undigested lump in my stomach. I feel the anxiety rising up between … Continue reading Why I share my fears with myself as if they are truth.
My head is unsure this is where I am. And my gut’s discomforted at not wanting to lose. Perhaps the moment feels like I love to Lose. I tend to give in to other’s opinions, want to avoid all confrontations, listen to my self-defeating voice to justify not speaking up… to avoid the possibility of … Continue reading Midweek Poems – Contemplating why I hate to Lose and why I feel I’m in this category
Preamble for today’s session: Note: Going in today, I was concerned that The Ruminator would impede my progress, because of his tightened presence in my mind these past few days. So, I shut my eyes and let myself go into my chest to hear and feel what came from there. All the questions asked today … Continue reading The 14th Step on The Ladder of Awareness
Focus of the session… Understanding disappointment Question: What is your default way of being when you realize your results are not the way you want? Answer: Disappointed & discouraged! Question: What does that feel like? Answer: I dive right in on new projects and feel regret at showing my enthusiasm and fear of judgment if … Continue reading The 13th Step on The Ladder of Awareness
Into the method: Part 2. Notes on Today: We jump forward by allowing ourselves to go deeper than ever before and climb the ladder past the highest rung. I’ve kept it shorter today in hopes of giving you an even clearer picture of the process. We will be elaborating on the specifics of the process … Continue reading The 8th Step on The Ladder of Awareness
Day 7 – May 29th, 2017 WELCOME TO THE CONTINUING OBSERVATIONS THAT FOLLOW THE DISCUSSIONS SESSIONS BETWEEN MYSELF AND MY MENTOR, BEREL M. WEINER FOR OUR BOOK PROJECT TENTATIVELY CALLED: “THE LADDER OF AWARENESS: THE PROCESS OF BEING YOUR TRUTH.” THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS FOLLOWING EACH SESSION AND HAVE ALREADY BEGUN TO CHANGE … Continue reading The 7th Step on The Ladder of Awareness
Welcome to the continuing observations that follow the discussions sessions between myself and my mentor, Berel M. Weiner for our book project tentatively called: “The Ladder of Awareness: The Process of Being Your Truth.” These are my thoughts and feelings following each session and have already begun to change with each new week of discussion. … Continue reading The 3rd Step on The Ladder of Awareness
Welcome to the continuing observations that follow the discussions sessions between myself and my mentor, Berel M. Weiner for our book project tentatively called: “The Ladder of Awareness: The Process of Being Your Truth.” These are my thoughts and feelings following each session and have already begun to change with each new week of discussion. … Continue reading The 2nd Step on The Ladder of Awareness
Law #4 - Master Your Thinking “The Quality of your thinking - the thoughts and beliefs you entertain, WILL make all the difference in the quality of your life. PERIOD!” Nowhere in Hoisington’s book “If You Think You Can!” is there a better explanation of the practice of mastering your thoughts. The mastery demonstrates very clearly … Continue reading Who’s In Charge Here?